allegro/chapters/chapter-006.md

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title: Revelations
teaser: >
    Years later, Linsan is enjoying a picnic with her mother in the family's valley. However things aren't going as well as she thought and Linsan is left with some uncomfortable questions.
age: 17 years
summary: >
    Linsan and her mother are having a picnic the family's valley. They dance and play music. After that, Linsan finds out that her family is struggling with money because her father's new jobs don't pay well and her mother can't get roles for plays.
characters:
  primary:
    - Linsan
  secondary:
    - Tinsin
  referenced:
    - Wagium de Pun (Epigraph)
    - Sian
    - Valian # is eighteen and a year older than Linsan
    - Kavinar # director
    - Tabil
    - Marin
    - Junith
locations:
  primary:
    - Serlig Valley
organizations:
  referenced:
    - Sterlig Family
topics:
  secondary:
    - Three Queens of Melodol
  referenced:
    - Fallacies of the Crystal Spheres (Epigraph)
    - The Mayor's Mistress # Play
    - Gone Without Water
    - No Soul Left Uneaten
    - Palisis (Unnamed)
warnings:
  referenced:
    - Depression
    - Divorce
constraints:
  - linsan is 17
  - valian is 18
  - now is summer
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> Most creative talents find themselves unable to perform magic while being distracted. --- Wagium de Pun, _Fallacies of the Crystal Spheres_

It was a beautiful summer day and Linsan enjoyed it by happily dancing across the knee-high flowers that had grown up throughout the workshop's ruins. Brightly-colored petals fluttered around her pale blue skirt as she twirled and dipped. A breeze followed after it, buffing her legs and arms with warm kisses.

Her violin dipped and bobbed with her movements. After three years of lessons, she played comfortably despite bouncing across the soft earth and fragrant blossoms. With every note, the air shimmered around her. The sharp notes sparkled and reflected light, adding to an ethereal glow.

Tisin, her mother, danced next to her. Her laughter and smiles brightened the entire valley. She danced as freely as she could but there was still no way of hiding the skill as she kicked off rocks and flew across the grasses. It looked like she was gliding more than jumping.

Linsan felt a bit of jealous but that didn't stop her from continuing through the bright melody. Each note rippled across the grasses, swaying them with the waves of sound. In the distance, the music fluttered against the growing tree trunks that may become instruments in another few decades.

She reached the end of the song and slowed her feet.

"No, keep going," encouraged Tisin. She deftly jumped on the remains of the wall and danced along it. "Keep going!"

Encouraged, Linsan hopped on the wall and raced along it, jumping and twirling as she did. Her bare feet smacked against the weather-smoothed rock. The sun-warmed stone felt good against her toes as she raced along the side.

She missed a few of the notes but it didn't matter. She leaped off the end and landed neatly on the soft ground.

"Bravo!" Her mother clapped. "You were brilliant!"

Panting, Linsan beamed and let the violin slip from underneath her chin. It was slick with sweat from dancing in the sunlight.

"Bow. You always take a bow when you finish." Tisin bowed deeply, pulling up the bottom of her dress so it caressed the petals of the flowers.

Linsan bowed back. "Thank you, my lady."

"And thank you, my beautiful lady." Tisin straightened and hopped around before heading to the blanket on the ground for their picnic. "Come on, you need a break."

She sat down and picked up a lace, wide-brimmed hat. Setting it on her piled-high brunette hair, she favored Linsan with a smile. "You've gotten so good at playing, Honey."

Still panting, Linsan sat down heavily next to her. She carefully set the violin back into its case. "Daddy's lessons have helped a lot."

"You were already good before he started teaching you."

Linsan shook her head. "No, these last two years of lessons have done more than I could ever hope to do by myself."

Tisin smiled and patted the back of Linsan's hand. Unlike her daughter, she didn't seem fazed by the dancing in the sunlight. With her pale skin, she looked almost ghost-like compared to Linsan's deep tan from visiting the valley every day. She would burn quickly though, which is why she always wore a hat outside even on cloudy days.

"Thanks for coming with me."

Tisin smiled and looked around. "Your father used to bring me here when we were courting. We would just sit on the porch of the workshop and watch the red birds fly. There were two nests over there and they had the prettiest little chicks." She gestured to an empty space.

Linsan looked around at the few remaining walls. They were almost completely erased by time. In a few more years, there wouldn't be more than a little debris to identify the passing. "It's sad now, isn't it?"

"No."

Surprised, she looked back at her mother.

Tisin looked happy as she peered around. "I guess I could think about what we lost but why? Sadness and hatred are anchors that pulls you down and drown you."

Linsan smirked. "Isn't that one of your lines?"

Tisin gave her a sly smile.

Unable to help smiling herself, Linsan started to say something but then she saw the briefest hint of sadness in her mother's amber eyes.

Tisin looked down and started pulling out sandwiches from the basket. "You... you wanted the almond butter right?"

Wary, Linsan nodded.

Her mother served the sandwiches. When she was done, she leaned back and braced herself with one hand. "I'm glad you are coming up here. This valley needs all the love it can get."

"The trees may not recover to make instruments again."

Tisin shrugged. "Does it matter?"

"That is our tradition. Seven generations."

"Maybe and maybe not," Tisin said. "We never know how the future is going to play. Two years ago, I was convinced that Sian would never play a violin again. But ever since you gained your talent, he's been playing. At first, it was to teach you but now, he just does it because it makes him feel good."

She smiled broadly and licked a bit of butter from the box that held the sandwiches. "I love hearing the sounds of you two when I come in the front door."

Linsan blushed.

"I also love dancing with you. You were always an active child and I was glad that you managed to acquire both your father's and my skills. Though, your father would rather you stop balancing on the good chairs while practicing."

Linsan's blush grew hotter. She hated standing still when she played. Her father could do it, but as soon as she started getting into the cheerful melodies, her feet started tapping.

Her mother chuckled. "You've destroyed a lot of furniture over the years. And your bed. Two of them if I recall." She was smiling as she spoke.

"Sorry."

Another shrug. "No matter. I'd rather have a daughter who found her passions than a pristine bed that was too small for me to sleep in. Your father might not say it, but he's found a new life teaching you how to play. I'm content."

Unsure of how to respond, Linsan focused on eating as she slowly cooled down.

Tisin ate only a few bites before she tilted her hat over her face and leaned back. Her slender arms supported her with her angle. She smiled and closed her eyes.

Linsan glanced at her. There was something not being said. Her mother had been home for almost a month when usually she only stayed for a week at most before going to rehearsals or out on tour. But Linsan hadn't seen her mother do anything since she returned.

"Mommy?" She blushed. "Mom?"

"Yes, Honey?"

"As much as I really enjoy spending time, what is going on?"

Tisin smile broadly and she shrugged. "No shows right now."

"What about _The Mayor's Mistress_?" It was one of the more recent plays that had started in town. "I saw the bills when we were grocery shopping."

Her mother didn't answer for a moment. Then she sighed. "You know that girl, Valian?"

"She was in my class in school."

"She got the role of the mother."

"She's seventeen!" Linsan shook her head. "That can't be right."

"Eighteen, she was born a year before you, but the director thought she pulled off a better mother than me."

"How can that be? You are a wonderful mother!"

Tisin grinned. "You would think so, but no."

With a frown, Linsan said, "Why not?"

Another shrug. "For most women, there are only four big roles in a lifetime: the innocent child, the petulant teenager, the hopeful mother, and the weary grandmother. I'm just not old enough to be a grandmother and directors like Kavinar prefer younger-looking women with silver hair than actual mothers."

It didn't seem right. Her mother was a wonderful actress. She had been touring Gepaul for over twenty years and there were dozens of awards to her name. Linsan had stacks of posters and notices with her face on it as the leading role.

"What about _Gone Without Water_?"

"It's a gay piece, no women. Even the women aren't played by women."

"And that monster one? Um...." Linsan's voice trailed off as she tried to remember the name.

"_No Soul Left Uneaten._ My tits were never large enough for Tabil and I won't cheat on your father." Tisin did a little shimmy and a grin, but there was a hollowness in her eyes.

Linsan reached down and plucked some flowers. She toyed with the petals, working her thumb along the edge until it crumbled. She thought about the looks her parents had been giving each other when the topics changing to buying things. She knew how dependent they were on her mother's income. No shows meant nothing coming in. "Are we going to have trouble with money then?"

For the first time in Linsan's memory, Tisin's smile faded.

A cold shiver ran down Linsan's spine.

"We have enough for a while." Tisin didn't look at Linsan as she sat up. She reached for the jar of ice water they had brought with them. "This will only be a couple of months. We've saved up enough that we don't have to worry for... quite a while."

Hating the feeling of dread that draped over her, Linsan thought about their situation. She never had to worry about a roof over her head, but she knew it was always tight ever since the fire. It had been years since they lost everything, everything but a few boxes and Palisis, her father's last violin.

A violin that hadn't been played, a virgin as Dukan called it, would be worth millions at least. That would pay any bill that came up.

"You are thinking about selling the stuff in the vault, weren't you?"

Linsan jumped. "What? No. I mean, yes. H-How? I didn't say anything."

Her mother sighed. "Nothing more than a good guess. I figured your thoughts would go there because that was where both your father and I went. But you don't have the history of that violin that we share. You didn't live through the events that led us to that day: the day when we dissolved our marriages and forged new ones, when we promised to always love each other, when that violin meant that we would all be happy. Palisis was a promise between four best friends who loved each other more than anything else."

A tear ran down her cheek.

Linsan reached up and brushed it from her mother's cheek.

Tisin shook her head, then she reached over to hug Linsan tightly. "Losing you is the only thing worse than losing Mar's and Jun's memory. If it came down to you and it, we'll sell it, but otherwise we're going to keep it until there is no other choice. Once made, that decision cannot be undone."

Linsan nodded.

Tisin sighed. "But, in many years down the line, when your parents are gone, you should consider selling it. It would give you a good life and you don't have the delicate silver chains shacked around your wrists that we did."

It was a good line from one of Tisin's more recent plays, but the words felt bitter and sad. Seeing the tears in her mother's eyes, Linsan nodded. "I'm sorry."

As quickly as the sadness and hardness appeared, they were gone behind Tisin's beautiful smile. "Come on, I think you need a bit more practice."

Linsan was thankful for the change of topic. She forced a smile on her lips. "Practice? You said I was wonderful."

"Well, you misplayed a few notes with that last little bit."

"It's hard to play while bouncing on rocks!"

Tisin smoothly stood up. "The best way to get better is to practice. Come on."

Linsan picked up her violin and started to play. After only a few notes, she was already swaying in time with the complex melody that she was learning. She focused on keeping the music around her, causing ripples in the air instead of lashing out or knocking things over.

Her mother pirouetted next to the picnic basket and then began to dance.

With a smile, Linsan let herself sink into the music. She gracefully brought each note out of the wooden instrument.

Her mother began to sing. It was the wrong song.

Linsan's concentration broke.

Tisin look at her with a grin. "Why did you stop?"

"You're singing the wrong song!"

"Sorry, which one?"

"_Three Queens of Melodol_. From your last play?"

With a grin, Tisin said, "Right. I'll get it. Start up again."

Linsan took a deep breath and started to play.

Tisin started back into the wrong song.

"Mom!"

"What?" There was a playful tone in her mother's voice.

"Wrong song! I can't play with you singing the wrong thing!" Linsan knew that there was a whine rising up in her voice but she couldn't resist.

"You should after four years."

"Well, I can't."

"You need to learn how to improvise then," Tinsan said with a smirk.

"So do you. Father says so every time you pretend you didn't buy sweets."

With a smirk, Tinsin leaned over and kissed Linsan on the forehead. "Then we both have something to practice."